Emptiness.

I need to take all this shit out of me but I don't even want to write, it's freaking me out.
I'm under the ground, I'm loosing all interest in almost everything and everyone, I can't handle this much longer.

The only thing that used to help me it's not working now and I really don't know what to do. Sometimes I just want to fall asleep for months, even years, and wake up only if there's something left to wake up for in my life. I feel so alone and useless when I've got a thousands of things to wake up for, then I feel selfish, but this is so out of my reach.. of course it is.. who could choose to stand all these pain and emptiness? I hate this, and hate the fact that it doesn't seems to have an end. And every day I think "It can't get any worse" it does, all the times does. It's killing me slow and painfully. Why me?

Make this disaster stop cause I can't stand this anymore. Turn my damn head off, make all those thoughts stop cause they're haunting me and I got nowhere to go. I need silence. I need peace.