I hate you, don’t leave me
I feel like I can’t breathe
Just hold me... don’t touch me.

And I want you to love me
But I need you to trust me
Stay with me... set me free.

But I can’t back down, no, I can’t deny
That I’m staying now ’cause I can’t decide
Confused and scared I am terrified of you

I admit, I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain

I hate you, don’t leave me
I hate you, don’t leave me
‘Cause I love when you kiss me
I’m in pieces, you complete me

But I can’t back down, no, I can’t deny
That I’m staying now ’cause I can’t decide
Confused and scared I am terrified of you

I admit, I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain

NO.

I’m addicted to the madness
I’m a daughter of the sadness
I’ve been here too many times before
I’ve been abandoned and I’m scared now
I can’t handle another fall out
I am fragile, just washed up on the shore

They forget me, don’t see me.
When they love me, they leave me.

I admit, I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain
No, I can’t take this pain
I hate you, don’t leave me

I hate you, please love me

♥

I drink to numb the pain,
I need you more than ever
But we cant be together
Love will find a way
to never let you down
She said that loves for ever
Now I know much better
I should of known
Love always lets me down.

I drink to numb the pain,
I should of known,
Love always lets me down.

ViNCENT

Every horror in his life that had crept through his dreams
Swept his mad laughter to terrified screams!
To escape the madness, he reached for the door
But fell limp and lifeless down on the floor

His voice was soft and very slow
As he quoted The Raven from Edgar Allen Poe:

“and my soul from out that shadow
that lies floating on the floor
shall be lifted?
Nevermore…”

A S H B A

Random Thoughts From Me To You. . . .

Life is like a fairy tale that some could only dream of. A Dream is just another beautiful word for Reality. Somedays are like an exciting nightmare that I’m too afraid to wake up from because I’m dying to find out the ending. I’ll never stop trying to push myself, because the day I do, is the day that my life comes to a sudden stop. I’ll never know it all because there’s not enough time in my life to learn the half of it. I’ll never take life for granted because it could all be taken away tomorrow. Live life, don’t let life live you. There’s nothing in life you can’t have or achieve if you want it bad enough. I’m thankful for all the pain, because now I know what it’s like to have loved. Everyday that I wake up I thank God for one more chance to get it right. Every time I play, I play as if it’s my last day on earth. The fans are the most addictive drug that I’ve ever had the pleasure of being addicted to. I will never! judge anyone because who am I to judge. Somedays I wish I could stop the marching band in my head. Some things are better left unsaid, sometimes I feel things I sometimes dread. While other times I wonder if I’ll feel when I’m dead. So while your alive make the most of your life, and don’t ever forget to open your eye’s. Don’t live for tomorrow, live for today, because this way, you’ll never regret yesterday. Don’t ask me what all this means because I have no clue, these are just random thoughts from me to you.

MUCH love,
Dj Ashba

Love you with my life.

It's been too long since later never came

I know one day eventually
Yeah, I know
One day I’ll have to let it all go
But I keep it just in case
Yeah, I keep it just in case..

In case you don’t find what you’re looking for
In case you’re missing what you had before
In case you change your mind, I’ll be waiting in here
In case you just want to come home

Strong enough to leave you
But weak enough to need you
Cared enough to let you walk away
I took that dirty jacket
From the trash right where you left it
Cause I couldn't stand to see it go to waste

I know one day eventually
Yeah, I know
One day I’ll have to let it all go
But I keep it just in case
Yeah, I keep it just in case..

In case you don’t find what you’re looking for
In case you’re missing what you had before
In case you change your mind, I’ll be waiting in here
In case you just want to come home
In case you’re looking in that mirror one day
And miss my arms, how they wrapped around your waste
I say that you can love me again
Even if it isn’t the case

Oh, you don’t find what you’re looking for

Oh, you’re missing my love

You dont find what you’re looking for

In case you’re missing what you had before
In case you change your mind, I’ll be waiting
In case you just want to come home
In case, yeah..

Stand by

Que raro está todo por acá.. el otro día me preguntaron "Y..? como estás?" y la verdad que me quedé pensando.. que tendría q contestar? como estoy? la verdad q no se cómo estoy, no estoy bien, pero no estoy mal, no estoy contenta, pero no estoy triste, no se cómo estoy! en Stand By fue lo mas acertado para describir mi ánimo y mis sentimientos últimamente.
Me siento rara, estoy confundida, no se qué quiero ni qué siento realmente.. siento ese vacío y a veces siento bronca, a veces quiero volver, a veces no quiero saber más nada.. tengo tantos sentimientos encontrados, es bastante complicado de entender, más todavía de explicar.
Solo quiero que las cosas mejoren, quiero encontrar un camino, quiero dejar el pasado atrás y seguir adelante, quiero aceptar las cosas, quiero alguien que me valore, quiero superar, quiero estar mejor. Quiero tantas cosas..